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升学辅导营之终

2011-06-14T01:49:00.002+08:00

四年前，我被邀请参加了一个非常有意义的活动也就是第十三届升学辅导营。我很开心能参加那一届的辅导营，它让我有机会带给中学生关于大学的生活大学的点点滴滴。鼓励他们升学和升学之道。很荣幸的也认识了很多新朋友，一些我会永远当兄弟的朋友！第十三届升学辅导营梦宝屋，我当了纪律组和一位美女Luciana做排挡。

第十四届展翅耕心，我觉得自己更成熟了。认识了更多新朋友尤其是团康组的成员，也增加了几个好兄弟。也有了打麻将的脚！哈哈！可能因为高层是之前一届一起玩过的朋友所以合作起来非常的开心好玩~ 印象最深刻的升学辅导营！我当了辅导员兼纪律助手而和我排挡的辅导员是秋虹，我的组是心安神宁。

第十五届你懂了吗？，因为我将要实习了所以没有担任重要的职位也觉得有点别冷落了但是自找的。哈哈！也不错，玩的很开心因为很多事情都是临时靠自己决定。茫茫的过去了~ 我当了总务兼膳食组还有纪律。我们都是MPC = Multi Purpose Committee。

第十六届人囧人启航，我没机会参加。因为将要毕业了而且有了工作，营长觉得还是让给年轻人。我了解也没怨言。筹委会也被否决参与，态毒滥了。或许我的不开心太明显了，让人家都很抗拒我去生活营。但我想着应该是我最后一次参加了，不去将会后悔！去了也肯定会悲剧。但我刚好没工作就去了，训练营两天都去看看。生活营每天都去看，顺便去玩。还不错啦，虽然有点尴尬因为是我一个人去。我不想有遗憾因为我将离开古晋也不知道几时还会有机会看到与参与这样的活动！最后一天，我和一群营委和旧营委呈现了uni life这个环节的表演~ 哈哈！这整个生活营对我的终点就是这里了~ 虽然不是营委，也有许多营员在facebook加了我。还不错~

这几天因为生活营而觉得很悲~ 或许其他人认为我很小气或是无聊，我不理。因为我觉得我还可以也还想所以我去参加了。那些让我很生气很毒滥的人，算了。。。我原谅你们，你们或许有苦衷但是把我的最后一次参加生活营的机会抹煞掉。我会避忌你们一辈子了。当兄弟当朋友也不过如此，我当你们是朋友兄弟也许你们只把我当过路人。现实的生活，我又上了一课！

这个post完之后，升学辅导营将是我人生的历史之一了。也许我有很多对某些人的怨言没有把它写出来因为没人会理。我相信四年四届四次参加与参与这项有意义的生活营，我也成长了！谢谢每一届的生活营的营长和筹委会让我有机会参与。所认识的朋友们，你们加油吧！新的营委们，接下来就是靠你们了！

“你们懂了吗？囧人启航需要展翅耕心才能达到梦宝之屋！你们的梦想未来，你们做主！”

哈哈，突然又联想到~

“要到达梦宝之屋需要展翅耕心，你懂了吗？之后就是囧人启航了~ 一定行的！”

囧

2011-06-09T22:17:00.002+08:00

这几天的心情真的很囧！在这里发泄就把它忘了，某些人某些事情也就算了。。。参加了三年的活动，就在今年让我离开了它。。。沉重沉闷的心情。。。也许因为我要离开古晋了，去年帮忙推动启动的活动。。。我被遗弃了，遗弃就算了因为我不是大学生了。我了解但是连筹委会我都没有被问要不要参加，我自动去问却被奚落。去参观也觉得没意义了，感觉没有人欢迎。。。像过街老鼠！他妈的~ 好囧！！！

Time

2011-06-08T02:23:00.002+08:00

Time to get the boat rocking, focus on doing my things and getting life in shape. Wasting minimum time as I've already wasted alot of my time doing nothing for the past few months. I enjoyed myself alot i guess, online gaming, going around meeting up with friends and stuff but it is time to move on. Next phase in life would be work.

Recently, I was insulted for quitting the 16th NVEC by a someone I considered a friend. I didn't want to argue with him over the reason why I did not join the camp but I'm just gonna state it here. I was supposed to hold a position in organizing the camp but however due to the fact that I was working at that time, the camp director told me that its better to give the position to a younger candidate who is still studying. Thus, I was removed from my position. I understand the stand point of the camp director and I still offered my services because I really wanted to join the camp. Truth be told, I felt like I started the whole wave which led to the election of the camp director who was quite reluctant to accept the position then. I did not receive any info on the camp for awhile so I went around asking, everyone's answer was it was all okay. So I felt like I was getting left out, in the end I was not even asked to join the organizing committee. Guess what, the organizing committee only has 1 person =.=" I asked to join but was dissed and sneered at. LoL!! wtf!! Insulted and hurt for no fucking reason. Part of me felt so damn disappointed with what had happened. I guess I am not welcome to the NVEC as I hope I was.

But I've recently sms-ed the camp director and offered my services again. Hopefully I get to do something and help out at least. My last participation in something that holds meaning to me. Haha, I need to get packing and ready my stuff. A new journey starts next week~

To those who do read this, thanks alot for reading my blog. Haha. I do not update daily nor do I share much except for my frustration and resentment to the world. I just need a place to funnel all these frustration.

2 Months

2011-05-24T14:32:00.004+08:00

Its going to be 2 months since I've left my previous job and having a long holiday from work and pressure. Undecided as ever over the next step. I've come to terms that its either now or never. Although I don't feel that I've wasted my past 2 months enjoying and relaxing but people keeps remind me of that. Then again, who are they and what do they know. Haha. Feeling hype and good about myself although I was feeling pathetic a few weeks ago due to the pressure and expectations others have been pressuring me with. Then I started to shut myself away from everything. I stopped facebook, MSN, QQ and due to my already faulty mobile phone was unable to be contacted. It felt so quiet and serene all of the sudden, everything else doesn't really matter anymore. I just wanted to have fun and enjoy. For others, 2 months might be a long time for someone my age but I am not just someone. I am a person who lives life to enjoy it.

So I've finally gotten a place to stay at Singapore and will be booking my flight tickets tonight. I'v reached the point of lazy to wait and worry while I can just do it. I've always contemplated about losing what has already been lost or was never mine to begin with. I'll always have friends and family though in due time, I might lose contact with them. But then again, I'll always make new friends and the world is a small small place. Being optimistic and happy go lucky was what others always said of me, I miss that side of me. The crazy and don't care about consequences type of me. Just do it. Its the Nike slogan but I just love it. Plans will never come true by just planning, thinking or discussing, you must take action and JUST DO IT. LoL~~

Okay, play time over... woots~

Lost

2011-05-18T16:27:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking for the past few days of what I want and where I want to be in the next few years. The only thing that popped up in my mind is a bright blue sky. Empty vision of a sky. What does that mean? I don't know whether it was inbred or it was due to the influence of my childhood. I don't seem to aspire for anything, I've always went with the flow of life. From primary school to secondary and then university. It was all meant to be. I was just a person doing things what others think were appropriate. I've never done anything crazy yet by far. I've tried living my life being honest to myself and hold the same towards others. Nonetheless, it was just a fictitious world that I live in. Looking back on my life and realizing that part of it was preplanned. There were no life changing decisions made, no hard times nor crazy time. I lived a normal and simple life. I think I might be psychotic because in some sense, there are things that people feel strongly about but where as I just don't want to care or I'd say I'm numb about life. I seek out excitement with roller coaster rides but none seem to make me feel alive.

This might seem like a gloomy and dark post but that's what I see life at the moment. Contemplating about the unknown future and constantly doubting my own worth. Underestimating my own abilities and capabilities is one of my very big weaknesses. I got so bored of doing nothing everyday that I spent hours online playing Facebook and trying to chat up with people to the point that I think I've manage to annoyed them till they start to ignore me. Dubious to the fact that I've reached the ripe old age of entering society and earning my own keep, I've manage to stay subtle in where I am at the moment. I remember telling a good friend of mine that I wanted to get lost in life as that time I was too certain of my future that I wish I lost it all. Guess my wish came true, I'm really lost at the moment of what I should do. I always second guess or delay and rethink decisions made. Sometimes I really miss the old me. I always tell myself that one day, I'll be someone that matters. Then I'll look back at the 2 months of blackness and darkness of my life (these past 2 months) and say phew.... at least I got over it.

I tend to think too far ahead when I've haven't even made the first move. TOO far down the road that it scares me into retreating from the first step. I wish I had someone to talk to and relieve all this nonsense and get some sensible advice or motivation. Everyone is too caught up with their life that I instead became the listener to their problems. I wouldn't say that I'm a good listener but at least I try to listen whenever I can and not distracted by the mood I am in. No one has to suffer because of my moodiness, thats what I thought. I do not really have faith although I do believe in Jesus and Christianity but not to the brink of devoting myself and my whole life into Christ. I've read the bible because of the stories not because of the teaching it holds. I was more interested in the stories of life rather than what each phrase or verse meant. So sometimes I do envy those with zealous faith in their religion. Its not something easy to do, putting all your faith your heart your everything into something.

Well, the main point of this blog was to say.... I AM LOST!!!!! I do not know what to do!! Uncertain about my future and what the next step will contain. Everyone edging me to take the next step.... Tired....

深重的考虑

2011-05-12T02:37:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't be doing this online but... what da heck

I've been seriously lost and confused with what I want to do with my life. I guess I've gotten to the point of life where I am at the crossroads with what to do with the rest of my life. I've never been enthusiastic about life and everything around me. I don't have a hobby, I don't even have things that I like or even things that I prefer. If you ask me, I'd say I'm an empty soul maybe that's why I can easily adapt and catch on to things because I am empty. Ever since last year during my practicum, I have been already contemplating on what my next step will be. I had never even thought of working in Malaysia and was always aiming to work in Singapore. However, due to some personal reasons that I've always regretted about. I came back to Kuching to do my practicum and after that I was stuck here. I tried applying for jobs in KL and Penang but have not heard any reply so far. I've sent alot of resumes to alot of local companies but none have replied. I guess I was taken aback or felt set back and disappointed.

When my convocation which was supposed to be in April got delayed until October, I made my mind to quit my job and seek out a new job over in Singapore. I didn't plan on when to go because I felt like I should relax myself first before putting myself into a brand new environment. I wasn't ready. During this period, I tried getting into a relationship which I was doom to fail. I guess I was just too single-minded and naive. The girl I liked and was going after was frequently hanging out with another guy. I asked whether he was her bf but she told me no and he was chasing her as I am. They've been going out for some time as I saw quite a number of pics with them holding hands or hugging each other. I was disheartened and decimated so I confronted the situation and got myself an answer that I knew I'd regret getting but at least it was enlightening. Although the feeling was brief, I got scarred pretty badly. Sidetracked....

I've been pretty stressed and annoyed by the fact of my friends being so damn annoying ever since I've quit my job. They've been non-stop asking me why am I not working or when are you gonna find a job or a lot of questions wanting me to get a job. I came to the point that I had to tell them off for bugging me with all those damn question. But some of them still keep asking me the question. I know you guys care but can you all stop asking those damn question for just a few weeks. I just need to relax and breathe! My mum gave me a time limit of 1 month to get myself a job but I'm way over the dateline because I still can't find it in me to get a job.

I went to Singapore for 6 days to relax and feel out the environment, it was fun and exciting. However, ever since I got back from Singapore, the questioning intensified. When are you going to Singapore? Why are you still here? Argh~~~~~~~~ Sometimes I wish I was back in UUM and during midnight when everyone was asleep, I'd walk around the hostel smoking and clearing my head. The environment is very quiet and good for clearing my head. The air is refreshing as well despite the stench of bird shit all over my hostel grounds. A few days after Singapore, I went to Kampung Assum in Borneo Highlands hoping to relax and enjoy the scenery. Too bad I end up spending the days over there celebrating the birthday of my friend's father and the re-dedication of their kampung's chapel. I drank, I danced, I smoked, I made friends and I got drunk. My body felt sore all over after that.... Haha, not quite the type of relaxation I was hoping for but it was fun nonetheless.

After I got back from Borneo Highland, the questions came again but at a smaller scale. Guess my friends knew better than to plague me with those questions again and again. I made a rush decision and contacted my friend in Singapore and asking whether I could stay over at his place while I job hunt. I never decided on the date of when I was going over. At first, I rushed into thinking 8 May, 1 day just after the polling day in Singapore. But I felt so damn uncertain then I put it off until 15 May. I was still thinking and thinking and undecided as I am. I put it off again. I am now thinking of going over on 20 May but then today I got an offer from UUM to pursue PhD. I've been thinking and thinking ever since I got the offer letter. Some of my friends gave constructive advice while some were the type that you tell them you're thinking about this then they fully support this then when you tell them about something else and they support something else. I know you all support me in whatever I do. I am in need of advice or at least some opinions or views not just blatant support on whatever I say.

I've considered the 2 options I have at the moment, to pursue my studies or just go get a job. If I pursue my studies, I'll be taking up 2 - 5 years and will be bearing a cost of roughly RM6000 per semester including hostel and living expenses that is if my research proposal is accepted. 2nd option, go for a job hunt in Singapore and the future is uncertain. Don't know where my life will lead to if I go Singapore as I have no plans for the future. I'd think working for a few years and if luck is on my side, I'll get a job that allows me to travel and work at the same time. That's what I've been aiming for an ideal job.

I'm tempted to take up the offer of continuing my studies at PhD level because this is a once in a life time chance which many would just do it if were in my position. However, the expenses and pressure to excel is what I'm worried about. I don't want to burden my mum anymore than she is with my brother's education fees. I think I know what decision I will make. Its just that I feel like I'm giving up a damn good chance to excel personally and in a broader sense. Getting a doctorate has always been one of my aims in life but not at such an early stage. It came too sudden and too fast. Still feeling undecided and confused.

Happy Bunny Year~

2011-02-08T16:55:00.002+08:00

Its been a very very long time since I've blogged anything... I am not a frequent blogger hehe... I just realized I had a blog when I was surfing through facebook and editted my profile lolz!!

Its the 6th day of the bunny year and alot of my friends that had came back to Kuching to celebrate the Chinese New Year are all leaving back to their studies and works. Although the last few days went by very fast, those were also a few meaningful days... met up with old friends... took alot of pictures and had alot of fun... this will probably b the last CNY with a whole big bunch of friends cause it will be hard to gather everyone together again after this lolz~

alot of emotions flying around with friends telling me that they wish time would stop and our fun would continue. life moves on haha~

kk dunno wad else to blog now lol~

Beautiful Beginning

2010-09-08T20:39:00.004+08:00

Hi, its been ages since I wrote anything here. Guess blogging isn't my kind of thing to pass time or maybe I just don't know how to express myself through writing.

Okay, just an update on what's been shaking in 2010. Well, based on my last post was before I went back to UUM for my last semester. During the final semester of mine, I finally realize how empty my university life is. It was full of activities and a lot of assignments but apart from that, I realize I did not really have many new friends from my uni life. Well, I got to know a lot of people from probably all walks of life but none of which I really got closed with except a few. I guess I'm just hard at socializing with people. Haha. It seems that every post of mine is so damn negative!! Negative-ism!! Okay, back to the update. My last semester was full of laziness! I slept and ate and slept and ate like crazy but I still managed to complete a few group assignments on my own. Went on a crazy trip to Langkawi with my roommate, Stanley, Ee Wen, Chiao Wey and my ah mui, Mel Yong. It took us 3 days to plan and we were on our way. Stanley and Mel got drunk really quick. Chiao Wey is Ee Wen's friend, kinda cute and I think my type of girl but it was the kind of time where I look and thought of only. Never tried to contact her afterwards or anything. LoL! Besides that, I made friends with a few China guys who became very close with me. I probably spent most of my time at their room because they had P1 broadband. I won an on-line competition with the help of Stanley and got a 180Gb external hard drive. Just what I needed because I had too much junk on my laptop. Hmm.... I also got awarded "Anugerah Keseluruhan Terbaik" at our annual hostel grand dinner. After that, it was finals and finally back to Kuching for my practical. Nearly forgot... Stanley's 24th birthday at Kuala Perlis was nice!!

My practical.... The story behind it... A lot of people asked me why did I came back to Kuching for my practical instead of going somewhere else. The reason behind it was because of family matters which I cannot explain in further details. I am even more eager than anyone to leave Kuching and take on the whole world, go places and learn new things but alas, I'm in Kuching now doing my practical. I'm doing my practical at a company that sells sports equipment, Kasumi Company. People also ask me why would I do my practical there. Another story, our practical center was supposed to help me find a company to do my practical in but 1 week before the confirmation date of our practical company, I called my practical center and they told me that it was better for me to look for one myself because they have a lot of students who have not been allocated a company to do their practical. I was stupefied and nervous with fires from hell bursting through my body. I called and e-mailed a few company but no one wanted an intern in such short notice (I called/e-mailed in April and I will start my practical in June) which I was speechless with this kind of response. In the end through the help of my Mum, I managed to go to Kasumi Company to do my practical. Its been 3 months and 8 days, another 3 weeks to go until the end of my practical.

Looks like I skipped an important event which happened before my practical, the 15th National Varsity Education Camp. Honestly, it was by far the worst and most unorganized camp that I've ever joined. I should not be blaming others or pointing fingers but it was that bad. I doubt the reason any committee members were able to keep cool with all the kinds of issues going on. However, we managed to pull it through with hard work and cooperation among us, senior committee members. We acknowledge the effort that the top committees had to put in despite the wreck that they caused, they'll tell us that we don't understand their situation and the things about the camp. Haha. Looks like I've wiped away my anger. During that few weeks, before and after the camp, I was infuriated and almost argued/blasted every time I talk about this event. To put it simple, the management was disastrous but overall, we never gave up for the sake of the participants and it was a big success. All the congratulations went to the top committees though but we patted ourselves on our back and told ourselves it was a job well done. Well, that's that for the time being.

A beautiful beginning, I am going to end my practical in 3 months and begin my life as a part of the working society in Malaysia. I will have to start looking for a job and will need to pay taxes. Haha. The thought of that seems very vague. People tell me that at this stage of my life, I should be putting more effort and enthusiasm into my career because I'm still young. That is something I know and I realized far more earlier before anyone told me. I'm considering either to go work elsewhere after my convocation, further my studies to Master or just continue working in Kuching. Okay, lets break it down from the least possible choice that I'd pick. Continue working in Kuching is something that I least want to do, I never intended to come back to Kuching in the first place but here I am now. Why? Maybe its because Kuching is like a comfort zone for me, I have a house to come home to and I don't have to worry about monthly expenses. Besides that, I don't have the feeling of independence because I basically know a lot about Kuching and have friends everywhere. Its the kind of feeling that I really don't like. Next option, further my studies to Master. I've been looking forward to that since my final semester in UUM but I've recently got to know that the fees for Masters have increased two to three-folds and requirements have increased. Some universities require Master students to have 2 years working experience before you're able to apply. Faced with financial restrictions and high requirements, I'm reconsidering about this but I've looked up a few universities such as UPM, UM and UNIMAS. If anyone of you have other suggestions, please do tell me. Last option, work elsewhere after convocation. This is what I really want to do at the moment, challenge life! I went to a motivation talk (insurance agent recruitment talk) where the speaker from Penang reminded me a few things that I've forgotten. Dare to change! Dare to take action! TAKE ACTION NOW! Despite the fact that I want to go out and work, my Mum is not that allowing. Maybe I'm just giving myself and excuse to stick in Kuching, who knows.

Side story, about that insurance agent recruitment talk speaker. His talk was bullshit. The examples he used to motivate us were due to physical capabilities, Santiago Munez from a football movie and Susan Boyle. What does this have to do with business? Santiago Munez was born with the physical capabilities and talent. He worked hard and got spotted by an agent from New Castle. Susan Boyle had an excellent voice, shot to fame in Britain's Got Talent show. Let's recollect ourselves, work hard and your dreams come true doesn't really apply in business. You might contradict me by saying if Santiago Munez and Susan Boyle didn't work hard then they wouldn't be where they were. Okay, then think about this. Business is business and Santiago Munez and Susan Boyle had talent which got them fans which made them famous. Name me a few businessman who through hard work shot to fame by doing business. Warren Buffet? He had the brains that came along. Bill Gates? He was just lucky to invented Microsoft and money just started to come. So its not only through hard work, you gotta be smart. The speaker was suggesting that joining that insurance agency is a smart choice with hard work, you get to be rich. LoL! In some way, maybe. I'd suggest him to use business examples instead of athletes and singers. They do work hard in their own way.

That's all for now I guess. Yeah, one last thing. I'm desperately looking for a girl friend lolz...

My "Anugerah Keseluruhan Terbaik" Award

Ee Wen, Chiau Wey and Mel Yong during Langkawi Trip

Me and my 180Gb external hard disc

Me and my China friend, Ma Ji Hong (I always hang out with him and his roommate, Wang Hao at their room because of P1 :P)

15th NVEC - Team MPC

Stanley's 24th Birthday at Kuala Perlis

New Resolve

2009-12-25T03:39:00.002+08:00

Its 3.40am on Christmas Day!! The day Jesus Christ was born... Today I have finally come to a final resolve over matters that I have kept shut away inside of me. Today I will forsake the past and embrace a brighter future without the shadow of the past. Today, on the day Christ was born, will be a day of a new beginning. So I will conclude the year 2009 which will be over in 5 more days.

Alot of things have happened throughout this fruitful and wonderful yet dreadful and unlucky year, the year 2009, I feel that I may have grown physically and mentally but some part of me still feels that there is something missing. A missing piece to a big puzzle. A key piece that will make everything seems right. The key to the Pandora's box within me. I find it hard to put my feelings in words as I can't even describe what I feel or think.

During the year 2009, I have found a few wonderful friends that I will always cherish and I saw the ugly sides of people I once consider friends. I have always valued my friendship with others with the utmost respect and care. Some may consider my view as naive and immature but I consider those who manage to gain my respect and trust as individuals that I will trust and respect in return. The first half of 2009 was blessed whereby I met a few people that I can truly call friends whereas the second half of 2009 was rough whereby I saw the ugly sides of people. I will end my university years in another half a year. I wonder where the future will lead me to. Sometimes I feel scared of the future due its unknown factors but thats life I guess. I am being undecided over things and I've learn the hard way that chances will not always be their waiting for you to grasp them. Chances will only fly by once. Catch em or lose em.

This semester break has really been a meaningful one despite the boredom and a few minor incidence but I somewhat got a clear look at things. People and my surroundings have move on and I am still standing here on the ground where I always am. I should not drown in the glory or history of the past but stand up and start walking towards the future. I've been turning in rounds on the very same spot for a few years. I bask in the past. I have become weak! I have become proud! I have lost the feeling! Sometimes I think I've lost myself. Today on Christmas Day of 2009, I shall pick up myself and shrug off all the dust on my shoulders. I will once again walk into my future. Not the past. I am looking forward to a new year ahead. A year of challenges and unknowns!

Final Resolve!!

Era of Dreams

2009-10-17T16:52:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i've last posted something here. Well its actually been 3 solid months...

Here to conclude this semester lolz....
Basically, I'd say that this semester was alright with a few ups and downs. It's my last semester as acting Vice-President for my residential hall's Students Development Committee. I've come to realize that no matter what you do and how hard you do your job. No one will even be grateful about the things you did. This semester I was ridiculed by a friend of mine for no good reason then again another friend of mine let me down when he actually sided on the friend that ridiculed me. LoL!! Ridiculed is definitely the only word I can think of when you get scolded in front of a group of people and the contents of the scolding were based on 5 semesters of me being here in UUM. It was the first time ever in my life that I was shamed but then again I had it coming when I joked around that uptight bitch who I thought was a friend. Never knew she kept such ill-treated thoughts of me which exploded on that day. That would be the climax of this semester.

Besides that I'd say nothing much happened besides the selection of the new committees. Disappointed with the way they selected the new committees. During my time, we'd had to go through a lot just to get selected. This semester due to my rotten President who'd I never considered President before, the selection was messed up. I requested for an open interview to select the candidates and he agreed to be in-charge of announcing it. In the end, forms were only given to a selected few and the date of the interview was brought up ahead. It was so stupid. The candidates that showed up were around only 30 people who among them were only a few qualified. When asked, they said they were asked to come to the interview by their seniors not because they wanted to. How rubbish and pathetic can this be? If you don't have the commitment and will then don't even bother to come. Well, the Felos were fast to give explanation that they can always learn after they were selected. I understand that but when it came to selecting. They said we need them to perform not to learn and kept saying that this candidate have no leadership skills or communication skills. LoL! Hypocrites! Luckily, I'm out of the committee. I'd say that TM's Student Development Committee has become decadent and weak. We use to be one of the top residential halls where we conquered sports and academics and even activities. LoL!

Haha... Seems like alot has happened this semester. It felt like a dream. Not a nightmare then again not paradise. These are all just challenges in life. Not everything in life is within our control and not everything you think you control is within your control. Life has the oddest way of telling you that it's in-charge of you and that you're not in-charge of your life. Recently, I've understand that you must first learn how to let go/lose before you can see/feel victory. I definitely feel that way. Losing something made me feel that actually I've won something in return. Look on the bright side. I'll always be me and you'll always be you~

Evil J

Do not pray for an easy life, pray to be a strong person.

2009-07-19T16:01:00.002+08:00

Do not pray for an easy life, pray to be a strong person. This was the title of an article that I just read a few moments ago on the newspaper. The newspaper was from long ago. Well the article was about a physically-disabled person who managed to become a professor in Arts.

This lady is from Taiwan and she was born with a sickness that caused her to lose control of certain parts of her body. When she was still a kid, she couldn't stand up straight or sit properly, her body was like a lump of meat just laying there. She drooled most of the time and had difficulty in doing almost anything. But thanks to her parents who loved her and took care of her all the time, she started to be able to control parts of her body by the age of 14. She was able to write and think normally like all kids thus her parents sent her to school. At school, she was bullied even beat upon by her fellow students. Once, she was mocked that she shouldn't even be allowed to come to school and it was just a waste to educate someone who did not have a future like her. That day, she cried and went back home complaining to her mother that she didn't want to go back to school. However, her mother told her patiently that what GOD has put on earth has its own value and good. The next day, her mother still sent her to school despite her complaining and crying. After a few days, she finally calmed down because she remembered her family loving her and the things her family did for her. She went on to get her degree, master and finally her PhD in America. Although being physically-disabled, she still manage to inspire many people. She's currently a professor in one of Taiwan's art university, an artist and also a writer who writes articles to inspire and motivate people.

Why I'm so interested in this article because one paragraph mentioned that due to her inability to speak properly, she conducted her lectures in the format of writing. During one of her opening lectures, one of her students asked. What do you see in yourself to have the courage to come to lecture us? The whole class was silent because they thought that she would get angry. She slowly wheeled herself over to the blackboard and wrote in Chinese. What do I see? i) I have parents that love me. ii) I have to cute cats. iii) I have GOD's love... can't remember the other 2 things she wrote and then she added 我看到我所有的，不是我所没有的。

This article made me feel that I've been taking my life and the things I have for granted. The hardship that I endure are nothing compared to things that she had to face all through her life.

The week when all things begin

2009-07-13T13:50:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 weeks since I arrive at UUM, 2 weeks since the orientation for the new intake started and 1 week since class started. This is my 5th semester and I've been involved in last year's orientation as well. I could say this year's orientation was a mess due to the absence of my Penghulu (honestly do not know what he was doing during that week, I had to handle most of his work T.T).

After orientation week, I was feeling lazy to go to class but since my result was not that good last semester so I made an effort to go to class. Most of my lecturers did not attend class for that week so I had alot of free time which I used to rest and catch up with my friends that just came back. They'd ask me when I came back to UUM and when I answered 22/6. They were like har? what for? For most of my friends, they think that university is just a phase in life where we just study to get our degree and graduate so that it is easier for us to find a job in the future. They do not really enjoy the time they spent here in the university. They just want to finish studying fast and go home and work.

As I always believe in, life is right now. We should enjoy and live the moment we're in to the fullest. I've not always been an active person. During my secondary school life, I do not join clubs, sports or even hang out with friends. I was quite a loner who lingered for companionship from those more active friends that always hang out but I was a mischevious person as well with a few partner in crimes. So most of my years in secondary life was very enjoyful with all the havoc and mischief that I caused. When I first came to UUM, I told myself it was time I turned a new page in my life. I do not want to be labeled as samseng, lazy and useless. I joined all sorts of activities that I could find or join. Then I realize that I've been missing out on alot of things, the things that I could have learned, the people that could have been my best friend and tons of things. Eventually, I joined the Student Development Committee of my hostel which I am currently the Vice-President for the past 3 semester. The projects I've been involved with, the people I've met, the things I've done and many more. It really made my years in UUM worth remembering.

I'd like to say, although I also miss my hometown but since you're studying in a university where all kinds of possibility and facilities and things for you to do, why not do it? I recently saw a quote saying "Education is not preparation for life but education is life itself", I really like this quote because everyday in life we learn new things and procure new knowledge. ^^

An eventful n unforgettable day...

2009-06-23T11:46:00.001+08:00

22/6 the day I was coming back to UUM. On this day, something happened which made me really really change my thoughts on the fact that I do cherish and miss Kuching and my friends alot.

As any usual back to UUM day, I'd do last minute packing and take things as slowly as I can. Brought some kolomee and kek lapis back this time, so after my mum drop me off at the airport. I checked in and went inside. After awhile, David Chong smsed me asking me whether I already went into to waiting area or not. I was curious so I replied his smses then I saw him at the viewing bay showing me something. He called me and told me that he wanted to pass me a key chain that he bought for me with my name on it but unfortunately I was already in the waiting area and couldn't go out to get it for him. He went home disappointed I guess cause he wanted to give me a surprise. He was actually the first friend that even came to the airport to send me off in the many years that I've went to UUM. I was quite touched.

Back to the topic, my flight from Kch to KL was supposed to be at 11.55am but I was informed a few days ago that it was cancelled and I was put on the 12.55pm flight. I thought it wouldn't matter but it really mattered after all. The 12.55pm flight was delayed till 2pm and I was suppose to catch another flight at 4.20pm from Kl to AS. I thought I could still make it if the aeroplane took off on time but instead after we boarded around 2pm, the stupid (sorry I really don't understand) flight attenddants took around 20 minutes to do the checking and stuff before the aeroplane started to move. I thought to myself, I'm going to miss my flight now and I'll just have to take the bus to AS. Forgot to mention that I met my old primary school friend at the airport, he's a singer now. He is David Chai Pei Jie. LoL~

I reached LCCT at 4.18pm which is the time I was walking from the aeroplane to the arrival hall to take my luggage. I called my mum and told her I already missed my flight, she told me try and go to ask the counter to see whether the flight was delayed or not incase I still had a chance to catch it. My luggage took quite sometime for it to come out. When I got my luggage, it was already 4.35pm. I quickly rushed to the AirAsia info counter but there was no one there. I stopped one of their staffs and asked him bout the flight. He told me the counter was closed and that the aeroplane was about to depart already. I explained my situation but he just kept saying sorry which was not helping at all. Since he wasn't helping at all, so I just went to the nearby shuttle bus counter and bought a ticket to Pudu Raya. When I boarded the bus to Pudu, my mum called again. When I heard her voice, tears streamed down my face. She was worried cause I was alone and this is my first time taking a bus alone from KL to AS. Before this I took it with my friends once during my 2nd semester. This made me feel sad and scared cause I had no friends in KL to accompany me. That sense of not having anyone you know nearby to help made me really miss Kuching and my friends. Luckily after I reached Pudu, there was an agent calling for people to board the bus to AS. So I boarded it, it was a double decker bus and I sat on the 2nd floor. Nice view and I was relieve that I was ok and about to go to AS. The bus was Pancaran Matahari.

The bus departed around 6.00pm. I was so hungry because I didn't eat breakfast or lunch that day. I thought that the bus driver would stop for prayers around 6.30pm or 8pm but it didn't stop at all. Around 8.15pm, I couldn't stand it anymore. I opened a pack of kolomee and ate it on the bus in the dark. Usually at night, the bus interior lights will be off. It tasted so nice cause I was really hungry I guess. After awhile, the bus stopped at Ipoh station around 9.20pm and we were given a 20 minutes break. Bought a bottle of 100 plus for RM2.20, super expensive!! Got on the bus and played sms while the bus moved on. I arrived at AS at 12.58am. Called my friend and he picked me to his house.

This was such a memorable day for me because now I really understand that I do really miss my friends and Kuching very much. Luckily, I'm writing this in UUM now lolz...

14th National Varsity Education Counselling Camp Part 2

2009-06-08T13:32:00.044+08:00

不好意思。。。昨天身体不太舒服所以没有完成Part 2。。。
这里就是Part 2了，也就是关于生活营的。。。

生活营是在31/5开始但是我们在30/5就必须进UNIMAS宿舍住了。在30/5早上，我很紧张因为这是我第一次做辅导员所以不太相信自己能胜任。虽然说痒痒和Edison他们三番四次的鼓励我说我可以的，可是我当时真的不知道怎么办。

能平在8.45am来到我家门口，我就急忙的把行李拿进车就看到KC。我不知道KC（不好意思，不知道你华语名怎样写）也有参加这次的生活营，他是我去年认识的朋友也算是通过上一届的生活营认识的。为什么呢？因为我上一届认识了能平和David他们之后出来喝茶时就认识了KC。载了我之后，我们就去了3哩半 bus terminal集合。到了之后，大家也大概来齐了。分车坐了以后就陆陆续续的上UNIMAS了。我们上时，被分到做David的车而我们那辆车里的人都不知道宿舍在那里。到了之后，在UNIMAS CAIS前面的小roundabout绕了几圈然后才跟在别的营委的车后面才到达宿舍。

到了之后，大家都在bilik operasi集合。刚到时，臭痒痒跟我开玩笑说营委要睡在bilik operasi。我快疯了因为bilik operasi很热而且风扇又转不快。还好只是开玩笑，之后就分房了。我跟团康组的同一个Apartment。我和Allan各自睡单人房而爱慧，Amy，佩霞，Nicoh，风儿和嘉敏都睡双人房。把东西放回房间后就再次跑回到bilik operasi继续我们还没完成的东西。忙着忙着就到了午餐，我们吃了好吃又便宜的鸡饭。。。我还吃了两包。呵呵！！真得很好吃！！之后大家又做最后的冲刺。。。文铃就交待辅导员们自己写关于自己的描述因为是用来破冰时让营员找自己的辅导员。我也不懂写什么好，只好在莉珊的帮助下随便写几行英文字就交给文铃了。真得很怀疑，营员是否能找到我因为我写的很general。大概三点多四点，汤圆她们就带我们走UNIMAS让我们看看station game都会在那里玩。那时太阳超热的，还记得临去之前佩霞和Nicoh在那里拼命擦防晒油。一边走一边听汤圆解释。我心想第一天就这么累了，接下来肯定更累但是既然都来了当然不管也不想那么多了。。。走完之后，就赶着回去冲凉因为那天晚上要拍营委的合照。。。匆匆忙忙的冲好凉，换好衣之后就去bilik operasi吃晚餐集合咯。。。之后就是考营委的手语咯。。。Edison，痒痒和文铃很坚持要求所有的营委一定要会手语所以我们团康组的就看大家跳手语一边抓毛病一边作弄他们。。。很好笑。。。大家都跳的还不错一下，也没什么很不对的地方。。。哪知道跳完之后，Edison突然发神经说大家跳得不够好要处罚。。。说他只看到两个人跳得不错，那就是华敏和培凌而其他的不够好要处罚。。。我当时搞不懂他在想什么因为我想说还有营委跳得比他们好。。。突然 Edison对着我说我也要受罚，我快疯了！！我是团康组特助都要受罚。。。开玩笑！！为了不要闹事就随便啦。。。就跟其他营委一起受罚了（处罚因该是跳舞）。。。真冤枉啊。。。处罚到一半时，后面传来了生日歌。原来是为华敏和培凌庆祝生日，他们都是六月份生日的。唱完歌就吹蜡烛切蛋糕吃蛋糕咯。。。满好吃的。。。吃着吃着就到拍合照的时间咯，我们是跟着自己的组拍的。。。每一组拍完之后，就拍大合照了。。。我们还猛拍，拍个不停但最后也是被Edison 叫停了。到了差不多十一点多要十二点的时候，Edison和痒痒一起做大组会议解释最后finalize的东西。我第二天需要陪Edison，美惠，淑玲和安琪到三哩半接待营员们。当时我灵机一动，就告诉David一定要帮我打包kolo面拿去bus terminal给我因为我们隔天的早餐竟然是吃包。。。简报完之后就已经要一点了，大家就各自回房睡觉了。。。Ah Tea那天晚上跑来我们的apartment睡因为他被分到跟营员一起一个apartment。由于营员都还没进来，他就不想一个人睡就来了我们的 apartment睡。。。好在我有带sleeping bag借给他用，他就在我们客厅的电视厨上睡。。。晚上很难睡因为枕头袋和床单很臭所以我就翻来翻去，哪知道床的木板没放好结果我翻身的时候bam!!床的木板就跌了，我也跟着跌了。。。我还以为我把床睡断了，那一声把Ah Tea也吓醒了。哈哈！！那个时候已经三点多了，我把木板放好之后就尽量继续睡觉了。。。

不知不觉到了四点半左右，我就被Nicoh叫醒了而且是被吓醒的因为她穿着黑色的衣服站在门口小声小声地叫我的名字。。。为什么会那么早醒呢？这就是多亏膳食组的。。。Benjamin作弄敬媖说一定要在五点叫他们膳食组醒来而佩霞和Nicoh说会帮忙叫其他营委醒。。。我就多事说我也要帮，结果醒来之后便打给Meldon给他们morning call。哪知他们早已经醒来了，不管那么多我们几个便去吵其他营委醒但是我们又不知道营委到底是睡那几间房间。之后遇到膳食组时，Benjamin既然说他只是开玩笑而已。那时我觉得敬媖很可怜但是还是笑她因为看到她七早八早起来的样子很好笑。。。之后便回到房间梳洗换衣服就去bilik operasi了，到了不久就跟着Edison他们到三哩半bus terminal。我们差不多六点五十分到达bus terminal，营员们都差不多到齐了。我们租了三辆巴士而巴士差不多七点半左右到，营员们就陆陆续续的点名上巴士。很高兴营员们准时除了一两个以外但是最后他们在我们出发之前赶得及来到。点完名之后，我们就跟营员们出发前往UNIMAS咯。安琪，美惠和淑玲各自上一辆巴士和营员们一起为了介绍 UNIMAS给各位营员。我和Edison较早到达bilik operasi，我乘着营员还没到赶快吃了我的kolo面！！真是很好吃~~至少比吃包好。。。营员到达后就把行李放进bilik operasi然后到外面登记。Meldon很好心，为了不要麻烦营员脱鞋就站在门口帮忙营员们把行李拿进去。我看到了就过去帮忙但是太多营员了，于是我就跟Meldon他们说让营员自己拿进来不需要对他们那么好。哈哈！！营员登记好和放好行李之后，我们就把他们再次的赶上巴士前往CAIS - Centre of Academic Information Services （UNIMAS的图书馆）。到了CAIS，就把营员们集合在CAIS的门口听Edison的简报。我在CAIS那里见到我好几年没见面的朋友，他在 CAIS做工。听完简报当然是进CAIS咯，Edison在我们要进之前告诉我们营委说DK没有air con。我们当时也不知道怎么办，Edison说会去bahagian aset看看如何。我们就带着营员们进CAIS，接待我们的是UNIMAS其中一位副校长的老婆也是CAIS的Penolong Pengarah之类的人物。她带我们到auditorium那里听一个短短关于CAIS的introduction。当中也发现到CAIS的冷气有问题不能开，结果我的朋友告诉我原来UNIMAS的冷气是centralized的而刚刚乘着假期期间做maintenance所以整个UNIMAS没有冷气。我们就在一个很闷热的auditorium听introduction，我还在后面差点睡着了。。。实在不够睡！！听完之后，CAIS方面有准备茶点给营员们。当时营委都没得吃，营员吃到要完了我就走过去看看有什么好喝。走到放东西的地方看到的是好像世界大战后，地板到处都是teh，kopi和一些跌下来的糕点。我真的是无言啊。。。还好不需要我们整理，吃完当然是逛逛CAIS。营员们都很好奇，到处走到处看。我们从里面观看完就到外面book drop的地方。原来CAIS的二十四小时study room就在book drop机器的旁边而且我们还看得到当一本书放进book drop机器之后，机器是怎样把书排好方便图书馆员把书放回书架。我们的参观就到那里停止。我让营员和营委们休息之后就赶着走回DK去。由于DK没有冷气，破冰就在DK外面举行。但在破冰之前，痒痒就把丑话先讲了也就是营规和宿舍的规矩。破冰时，玩了一个游戏而输的就要受到惩罚。惩罚就是跳舞，有一位女营员超会跳的也跳得不赖引起男营员的呼叫声因为她跳的满火热的！破冰很顺利地完成，我的组也很顺利地找到我和秋虹。我的组是第七组名叫心安神宁，由 Winnie，训顺，彩晶，佑俊，丽妮，思慧，美莹，俊杰，苛欣，慧莉，秀云和欣茜组成。组长是Winnie而口号是 *拍手* hah *拍手* hah *拍手拍手* hah hah Seven Seven 安啦~~ Da Tiok Nia~~。这个口号是经过他们精心想和合作下想到的。我们也为了准备下一个环节也就是炸，我们想了几个炸但可惜都没能派上用场。我的组还和Ah Tea跟Allan的组联成一个联盟。本想要把所有组合联盟起来对付营委的，可惜没能做到。过后就是吃午餐咯，吃鸡饭！！也是不错的可是志莱有打包 kolo面，结果我吃了一盒鸡饭和一包kolo面！！呵呵。。。之后就是团康组的处女秀咯。我们只教和世界做邻居的手语因为开幕只用那首歌。接下来即席辩论时，痒痒叫我们进礼堂。礼堂既然是用风扇吹打才没那么热，从Edison那里得知是副校长吩咐UNIMAS的人把几十架风扇抬到DK给我们用。有两题印象比较深刻的是人祸比较恐怖还是天灾比较恐怖还有勤能补拙还是勤不能补拙。辩论进行当中，评审会在每一组挑选一个营员之后组成一队和我们营委辩论。我们营委队有我，佩霞， Alvin， Nicoh， Susanna和几位营委。我们的题目是爱的教育有效还是铁的纪律有效，我方是反方是铁的纪律比较有效。在辩论的当中，对方已经认同铁的纪律也就是说我们已经不需要再辨下去了但可惜的是Nicoh没听清楚就继续反驳所以就越辩越激烈。即席辩论完之后，我和秋虹就带着我的组从DK走回宿舍了。回去之后，登记组那边有点乱所以我交代秋虹安顿我的组而我去帮忙因为时间很赶。帮忙拿到我组的房间钥匙之后，我就去帮他们拿食物。。。这时就发现我的电话不见了又想不起在那里漏了。因为他们双手拿着行李，我就叫他们先把行李拿回房间然后再来跟我拿饭。可是我等了很久，只有十个人来拿饭。我怕我自己赶不及就先回房了。过后我组的那两位来我房间拿，我既然少拿一盒。就很抱歉的叫她们去能平那里拿多一盒。吃饱了，我就下来刚好看到Alvin，原来我的电话漏在DK的座位。应该是紧张要上台辩论时漏掉的。之后，我们就赶快把营员集合然后走去DK。开幕之前，我们和大家一起再练手语。然后就开幕咯~~ 开幕之后，就和来宾大合照。开幕完之后，我们又走回了宿舍。。。我的脚~~~~~哈哈！！回去换了衣服之后又集合了，玩游戏的时间到了！！游戏总共有5 站，营员们都玩得很疯尤其是酸甜苦辣那一站。看着营员猛吞饼干，喝辣椒和喝各种各样汁参起来的汁，让我们几个在场的营委笑到不行。我自己也有试喝那个杂汁果然还好，我也试看一口气吃了七片饼干。真的有够难吞的。。。当晚也来了几位超级资深元老级的人物也组成了发财组，他们是发财，Jenny，素慧，郁颖，志宏还有Ah Tan。当晚也被他们乱的有声有色。。。哈哈！！营员都玩到忘我的境界了。。。随着就时间到了，接下来就是最高分的两组玩万里长城。营委们都很开心也组了一队跟营员们比，结果营委的比较长但是途中我的眼镜也破了。。。被素慧不小心的踩了一脚因为跑来要拍我脱衣服的一幕~~ 哈哈！！之后吃宵夜了，我和秋虹跟组员们一边吃一边聊天，分享我们第一天的经历以及大学生活。。。痒痒，Alvin，华敏，佩霞，Nicoh和Collin都跑来跟我的组聊天。。。呵呵~~聊得好开心~~ 分享到一半就分了天才表演的题目，我的组得到了卖火柴的女孩。稍微讨论了一下，我就让我组的营员都回房间咯~~ 之后陆陆续续其他组的营员也会房了。。。营委就准备要feedback了。。。我那时已经在一个半睡半清醒地状态，我总是跟坐在我隔壁汤圆说我的组很乖而且还重复了好多次。。。她们还以为我醉了~~ >.< 到一半，Jenny拿cheese cake请大家吃可是数量有限。。。我还来不及站起来，前面的营委们就像蜜蜂闻到花蜜的冲过去了（应该可怜汤圆因为她想吃但是已经无力站起来了）。。。在 feedback的时候，有营员说我们不够严格和太亲切了所以我就决定第二天要用铁的纪律好好的管理一下。我怎么说也是第十三届的纪律组组长，人人怕的。哈哈！！差点忘了提，那天晚上才知道原来1/6/2009是Edison的生日。。。我们为他唱了生日歌庆祝他的生日，兄弟生日喔~~ 当然要抱一抱所以我和Ah Tea还有几位营委就给Edison拥抱一下。。。Feedback之后就回去睡觉咯，那时大概两点多。。。我可能因为太累就睡得像死猪那样，可是四点多被蚊子咬醒。。。痒得要命 T.T。。。

第二天来临了，由于Nicoh和佩霞快没声音了。早操就由我这位团康特助来带，可是我不会算拍只会跳。。。哈哈。。。结果还是由佩霞大概讲解后我们才跳。。。我们早操跳小猪的撑腰~~很难想象吧。。。也多谢营员们的合作才成功把早操做完。应该很容易跳吧?? 早操完就是Edison的简报咯，听完Edison解释那天的行程和回应营员的feedback之后就各自回房间休息。我那天真的有点懒惰但是大约七点多下去时，有营员既然还很relax 的从房间出来慢慢走。我就问他，吃好早餐了吗？他竟然说是刚刚才准备好要去吃早餐呢。。。我想一想，根据rundown我们8点在DK的活动就开始了。如果他们还慢吞吞的，今天的行程又会拖到了。。。二话不说，我就开始用比较大声的声音叫营员们手脚放快。我到了bilik operasi时，果然不出所料就有一长排的营员排队拿粥。速度还是很慢的而且营委自己都还没吃呢。。。我就叫膳食组分快一点，我自己拿了一杯milo坐在那边慢慢享受也边叫营员快点顺便也提醒以及叫辅导员快点吃。。。哈哈。。。迅速的喝完我的milo然后就快快的洗了杯就赶全部营员和辅导员去集合要一起走去DK了。我的组有一个营员叫苛欣，她的脚因为前一天穿鞋走的太久就起了水泡。所以美惠就帮我载她到DK去，谢谢咯。。。由于前一天营员们走去DK时很乱还走在马路中间好像马路是他们的，我就叫每一组排成三排一起走，还指定辅导员要跟在旁边确保营员们走的时候不要乱。我的组很整齐因为我吩咐时，Winnie就很留意我所说的一却就和训顺把组员排好。我和秋虹跟我们的组一起走，他们走到UNIMAS桥的时候突然想要唱歌结果边走边唱。唱到不知要唱什么歌。。。谢谢辅导员们那么合作，虽然我不是纪律组的。到达了DK然后安顿了每一组后，我就和我的组坐在一起听大学介绍。可是我坐的那张椅子有点坏掉所以坐的不太舒服，最后还是跑到后面坐还差点睡着了。介绍的不错但是重要的info好像没有真正的带出来而且有video是用回上一届的（个人想法，不要生气哦）。。。哈哈！！接着的就是团康，这次也是我和Nicoh带因为佩霞已经换好衣服准备接着的校园秀。手语跳完之后，校园秀的准备还没好所以痒痒就叫我们再带下去。又不想跳手语，我就变成了冒牌司仪玩人浪。刚开始，营员们都不懂得玩结果就请了一堆营委上台示范。示范了之后营员还是没有反应，冷场得快要结冰了。。。我就叫营委下去跟营员试玩一次结果是。。。他们会玩啊。。。但是当我问时，没有反应。。。玩完人浪之后后台还没好，就再教另一个小游戏叫 Apple I Tai I Tai。教着教着还是没什么反应，我快疯了！！本以为就可以丢回给痒痒了，哪知道还需要拖下去。。。因为冷场没反应，我已懒惰到不行了就坐下拿着mic来和营员聊天反正也不懂玩什么好了。瞎聊时还是很冷场，还好只是一下而已就交回给痒痒了。这次冒牌司仪做得很辛苦，痒痒~我终于了解你做司仪但是冷场的感觉了。。。校园秀就是六个最流行的专科都找人当模特儿呈现以后读完那个专科出来有什么工作可做但是事先都会有一段短短的演剧。校园秀开始的第一组合是 Collin（演老师）和小胖（演Chemist）而剧情是。。。我也搞不清出他们在演什么，只知道两公婆吵架罢了。。。第二个组合是佩霞（演会计师）和 Allan（演大老板），也是两公婆的剧情。当中我和Nicoh有客串，我演的是他们五岁大的饭桶儿子（一餐要吃两桶饭）而Nicoh演白痴女儿（演的真像疯婆一样）。哈哈！！回想我们排练的时候，简直是乱演乱来的让每个看到的营委都笑到不行。。。第三组合是小黄（演工程师）和安琪（演Graphic designer？不太记得了）又是演两公婆的剧情。由于小黄没有声音了结果他们的剧情我也搞不太清楚但是听说他们的对白原本是很好笑的。演完之后，文铃老师就做了一件我觉得不可思议的事情。。。那就是派问题纸给每一组做，虽然那些问题看起来满容易的可是有的问题我觉得他们应该是找不到答案的（我没有去看墙壁上的质料，可能当中有）。。。顺便在这里问一问，问题纸改完之后有没有分还给每一组？如果没有，那么你分给每一组做有什么意义呢？之后就是午餐了，我忘了吃什么但是应该不是很好吃的要不然我一定记得。。。呵呵。。。吃饱之后就是团康了，佩霞和Nicoh突然有一个idea就是跳一个可爱的生日舞送给 Edison（一个我觉得完全破坏了我的形象的舞但是为了兄弟就硬着头皮跳了）。。。我带头跳然后团康组的就跟着但是结果照片里没有我。。。好伤心。。。哈哈。。。但是无所谓啦，大家高兴就好。。。接着就是在景盈的带领下重出江湖的the side the side the side，the side the front the back，the side the front the side the back，the side the front the back。。。哈哈。。。有英文版，福建版，马来版，客家版和华文版。。。我也搞不清有多少版了。。。我们营委也跟着玩，玩得很开心。。。玩完了，我们就玩脚对脚然后接着对方的拉力一起把对方拉起来。。。我们营委做示范。。。我和Ah Tea还有小胖和不懂谁。。。我们示范之后就让营员们来玩了，玩着玩着就从两个人变成一组变成五十多个人（营委和营员一起）。当时我想参加一起玩但是 Meldon不在还有Ah Tea已经跟他的组了，只有他们两个才能把我拉起来。。。当时在训练营，营委最高纪录就是38个人而已。之后就到汤圆的寻宝游戏，每一组需要带着一颗鸡蛋然后去闯十个game station而且要确保但不可破还有会有营委扮天使（只能帮人的），恶魔（只能害人的）和天魔（能帮也能害人的）。我很想做恶魔但就是被汤圆逼做天使的人，理由是她们肯定没人会相信我是天使但是我觉得她们是怕我会把每一组害得很惨。游戏刚开始时，我就听Ah Tea的建议就留在DK1守株待兔因为那里有两个game station。一开始就有一组在DK1走来走去，他们跑到百人宴会的station去被拒绝然后又跑了下来。我跟他们说我是天使可以帮他们但他们都不相信只问我game master会骗人吗？我说不会然后他们又跑到百人宴会那里吵着说提示是那一站的，他们当然又被拒绝咯。。。他们在下来时我就问他们提示是什么，原来是旋转楼梯也就是楼下姐姐那一站。。。我告诉他们是姐姐那一站但他们却不相信又跑到楼上去，最后才肯下来问姐姐是不是他们那一站。。。气死我了！！我给他们答案居然不相信，这都是汤圆害的！！我是不是有个恶魔般的脸？？之后我就走开了，一边走一边告诉我所看到的组说我是天使。。。可是，没有一组会相信我。。。挺可怜的，晒着太阳一边走来走去叫人家相信我是天使却被当是恶魔。。。我走着走着就到了多手多脚那一站，是慧珠做game master。到达时，有一组卡在那里不能走因为要猜那一关的名字。。。给的提示是X手X脚，营员们给了很多不同的答案如七手八脚之类的。。。我说我是天使，只要他们相信我是我就给提示。。。可是当下我也忘了那站的名字，之后拿出在我小包包里的游戏说明才知道。。。哈哈！！他们猜到不耐烦了就相信我咯~~ Yeah~~ 这是第一组相信我是天使的！！我就给了他们提示也就是夕上夕下加起来等于一个字，他们也猜到游戏名字是多手多脚就过关了。。。帮好我就走了便遇到Edison了，我就和Edison一起走咯。。。我们一起作弄经过的组但是没有一组相信我们，莲营长也没人相信。。。哈哈！！我们每一站都走了，很多很好笑的画面。有一组让我觉得很拽，就是心血来潮。为何呢？我们经过问他们要不要帮忙时，他们既然用很拽的口气说你们走开，我们靠自己不需要天使的力量就可以过关了。。。我当下无言了，我很不爽就到每一站都告诉game master拖他们的时间还有为难他们。。。之后我们也走去骇客任务，那边的game master真得很好。。。 game master有Alvin，San San，淑玲还有莉珊。当每一组到达时，Alvin就强调要有团队精神之类的话而San San就会玩一些小游戏考他们的团队默契。真的值得一赞！！之后我也跟Edison走散了，一边跟经过我的组说我是天使（没有一组相信我）一边看那里一站比较好玩的就过去。我就走到了Collin那站叫盛杯剩水，Collin看到我就很紧张的叫我过去。。。我还以为什么事情。。。原来Edison刚刚不久前也来了他那站而且叫Collin把游戏移进去有屋顶的地方因为游戏进行的地方是在太阳下，Edison应该是不想营员晒太久因为那时太阳蛮烈。但是由于有屋顶遮到的地方的地面不平所以Collin就说不要因为怕营员会跌倒受伤，可是Edison坚持要Collin换而 Collin坚持不换地方。最后Collin说Edison就臭着脸走开了，他不想Edison不高兴就希望我可以帮忙解释给Edison听。那时，痒痒一群人也来到了Collin那一站。我们也将事情告诉了痒痒。哈哈。。。没什么大事的因为Edison只是嘴巴硬但是心软的。。。接着我也跟着痒痒他们乱走，一边走一边跟佩霞聊天才得知臭痒痒跟佩霞调换角色。痒痒本来是天使的，跟是天魔的佩霞换了因为他想整营员们。。。做副营长几爽啊！想换就换，我都没有机会整营员。。。伤心！之后我们便走到了DK百人宴会的那一站，刚好有一组在那边刚要开始玩。我们也多事一起玩，哈哈！！回想当时的画面都觉得很好玩。。。玩着玩着，Edison来到了。他说报纸情书那一站的情书很好笑，痒痒他们听到了就走过去看看。我在百人宴会那里和浩培跟佩霞他们作弄营员，有一位女营员蛮漂亮的哦！！哈哈！！好笑的是，有一位营委（应该是佩霞）被那位漂亮的营员抱了。我闹够了之后也走到了报纸情书那里，结果没有人只有game master和痒痒一群人在那里讲八卦。我也坐下来听他们讲，我没有讲哦。。。一边看报纸情书一边听咯。。。营员们做的报纸情书蛮有创意的，很搞笑但是带有点肉麻的感觉。看完之后，我也走了。走着走着又遇到Edison，刚好那时他接到电话说在软骨bok bok那一站有人流鼻血。我们两个就急速赶过去看看到底怎样了。到达时只见KC帮那一位流着鼻血的男营员按着鼻子，我就坐下来在那位营委的身边看他怎么了。有一个男营员用很凶的眼神瞪着我，我还以为是我们营委弄到他的队友流鼻血。我当时是不知道发生什么事但是他的队友竟然随便问问他怎么样了就叫game master快点玩游戏，我就念他们没有关心队友。他们的队长就说那关不玩了，直接到下一关。但由于如果他们没有过关，他们拿不到提示。那位受伤的营员就告诉他的队，他没事了叫队友继续玩就好不用理他。刚刚我提到的男营员真的当时很想扁他因为他一边玩游戏一边瞪我！！过不久我就走开了，走开之后跟Edison聊天才知道原来那个流鼻血的男营员是被他组里的一位女营员不小心踢到的。软骨bok bok有一个项目是要用嘴吸着一张纸然后传给另一个要用嘴吸住。当时男营员和女营员都在各自的旁边，而刚好女营员吸的不够大力纸就飞了。这时男营员就弯腰想尽力把纸吸回来而女营员想要用脚把纸踢起来，就这样不小心踢到了男营员的鼻子。。。真得很倒霉吧。。。哈哈！！我又见到我的组但是当我说我是天使可以帮他们时，竟然都不相信我！！特别伤心啊~~ 过没多久就遇到汤圆，她说时间不够了要全部的恶魔和天魔都帮每一组不可以害他们而且五点就要每一个game master停止游戏了。。。到了最后，全部营委都是天使所以我就懒惰走上走下了。。。刚好就到了小胖那一站和Ah Tea坐在那边聊天等待时间到。。。和Ah Tea聊着每一站的游戏时，我才想起我到大部分的game station的game master都说我的组很有礼貌而且很有团队精神以及有默契只有莉珊说我的组不是很好之类的。。。哈哈！！我记得哦~~ 刚好我有交待浩培帮我买东西就想说请他们喝100 plus毕竟这两天花费了那么多力气，喝点100 plus应该ok的啦。。。就叫浩培顺便买一两瓶100 plus，那时好多人一起要买结果买了六瓶。。。一瓶秋虹，一瓶淑玲，一瓶小胖，一瓶我自己还有两瓶给我的组。。。之后我和Ah Tea就在小胖那一站坐，一边玩冰块一边讨论每一组的表现之类的话题。到五点多才帮忙收拾东西回DK，回到DK就休息咯，很累！！之后数一数，原来有几组都还没回来DK。汤圆就开始紧张了，打电话给几个game master问他们的game station关了吗？还有没有看到有组走上走下。。。因为时间紧迫，到齐的组就先走回DK了。。。过不久，失踪的那几组陆陆续续的回来了。。。有一位男营员，因为身体不舒服就坐在一边休息等我们忙完再载他回去。我的组是最后一组回到DK，他们玩完天使女王游戏就让他们休息一下。由于我有事要忙而秋宏业不在，我就叫他们小心自己走回DK。当然我也有交待其他走路回宿舍的辅导员和营委帮忙照顾他们，但是我不太担心因为我的组很合作很乖，又有winnie的带领以及训顺的执行。也交代他们一回到就去拿食物吃然后休息大概6.30pm出来集合，winnie反而叫他们6.15pm就集合了。。。之后我是跟美慧车回，要上车前看到团康组的走路回。想一想也不太好吧，就叫有驾车的看看车子有位顺便载团看组的。Edison说没关系，可以载两趟所以我就先回去了。 Edison之后载了两趟咯。回到去，我都快要不行了。。。好几天不够睡加上两三天在UNIMAS里面走来走去。。。回到之后，脱了鞋就倒在床上睡着了。。。还好佩霞他们回来时把我吵醒，要不然就是睡到天亮了。。。还好有睡了十多分钟，整个人有一点点地充电了。。。赶快冲凉随便吃吃晚餐就下去了，走着去集合的地方就经过痒痒的房间。。。痒痒从窗口望出来问我营员几点过去DK，我说不清楚因为我只知道6.30pm要集合而发财的讲座是七点开始。我就问他要我们几点出发去，他想一想之后就跟我说我们6.45pm出发去。我想想应该会很赶但痒痒说迟一点不用紧。之后集合我就尽量快快把营员集合然后就和营员一起走过去。到达了，我就迅速的把他们带进礼堂咯。。。之后就是发财的讲座，本来是有请两位讲师但是临时不能出席所以痒痒就求发财帮帮忙补充那个空当。。。发财开始讲座时，营委大部分都到外面听文铃解释blind trail要怎样。。。我们打算顺便为六月份要生日的营员庆祝生日，痒痒他们就planning在玩blind trail时把他们几位拉开带去另一个地方。讨论了很久，因为不知道要带他们去那里。走在石头路上就不太好玩了，于是我们打算尽量带他们走草路。我就被安排做第一组的带领，安琪是我们的guide。刚开始我也不懂要带他们去那里，就走上走下转圈圈。由于我们这一组不多营委所以也没有玩的太尽兴，而且我们还是走远路。走着走着就遇到发财他们带的组，玩的几开心。。。看到都想参他们玩，我只好尽量咯。。。但是真的没有什么地方好玩，哈哈。。。我们走了好像有三个小时，途中也有一位营员因为头晕而不能继续更我们走。。。我们是最后第二组到达集合的地方，而且那时我们都快渴死了。到达之后，我还很紧张的走过去志宏的后车厢拿水。。。因为那个装水的container是放在后车厢上，我就过去想也不想的拉了一下结果把他的后车厢刮了一下。真的不好意思，好才他不介意但是我觉得满惭愧一下。一边等待最后一组回来就一边帮忙派水给刚会来的营员，Susanna还发现原来有的杯没有洗清洁还有肥皂就把这些杯放一边。派完之后，我就跟痒痒聊等下要怎么办，聊着聊着我就靠在苏惠的车上但这时alarm没有响。反而是David靠的时候，alarm突然响了。吓倒我！！结果苏惠走过来，我们被讲了一顿但是David也被苏惠送了一掌。哈哈！！过一回，最后一组也回来了。因为很夜了所以让他们休息没有一下就要开始帮那几位庆祝生日了。我就开始叫每一组的组长肯定一下自己的组员有没有到齐，当然有几组没有来齐咯。我就很大声的训了这几组，他们都慌了不知道他们的组员去了那里。过后我们也叫那几个组的组长到前面来告诉他们我们的计划，叫他们帮忙配合配合让场面更紧张。哪知道我才要开始炒气氛，那几位要生日的就走出来了。突然大家就开始唱生日歌了，哈哈。。。我就嫩在那边看，太累了。。。没有力了！！发财还有痒痒帮忙拿蛋糕就顺便也帮Edison再次庆祝他的生日。之后就是吃宵夜咯，每一组自己拿了之后就围在自己的组一边分享一边吃。我把之前买的100plus还有roti canai拿出来给我的组咯。算是要奖励他们咯，因为他们也应该很累了。我们也分享了满多一下虽然大部分都是秋宏分享怎样做老师。哈哈！！散会之前才知道明天的早操取消了，我都么想要做早操呢！！ T.T 营员之后也陆续回去睡觉了，我们应为也做Post Mortem咯。到一半，我们闻到有烟的味道就紧张了。还以为失火还是营员抽烟，但经过Ah Tea还有忘记谁了的查看之后原来没有什么虽然那个烟味还是很重。我也没有很专心的听Post mortem，打瞌睡。哈哈！！过后也会去睡觉了，睡之前当然要冲凉哪知道我回到房坐在床上睡着了。大概三点多突然醒来才冲凉，之后才到回去睡觉。

第三天当然是能睡就睡啦，我故意迟醒虽然我其实被闹钟吵醒了但还是躺下去睡。团康组的下完之后，我才慢慢的爬起来冲凉换衣服。想起痒痒有说过，营委可以不需要直接换营衣所以就穿了便服结果果然只有我一个营委穿便服。哈哈！！我走到集合的地方时，大家都还没有好呢。。。还在慢慢的吃，慢慢的摇！我心想我今天懒惰要管那么多了就走去找美惠告诉要坐她的便车去DK把要换的营衣和鞋放进她的车。之后走去吃早餐，原来是吃和去年生活营一样的斋nasi lemak。哈哈！！说到这里，我就回想去年的生活营。那天早上有几位吃了之后就告诉大家说不好吃，结果就剩了很多。好才今年的营员只是乖乖的拿，所以剩不多。我还刻意跑去问营员好吃吗？大部分都说满好吃的只是belacan有点酸酸的。他们其实不知道那是斋nasi lemak，还有营员说是他吃过最好吃的nasi lemak。我心想他是不是饿坏头脑了，哈哈！！我本身在去年的生活营吃过之后也不再吃了，斋nasi lemak 并不难吃只是味道不太适合我还有许多人。。。哈哈！！我只喝了一杯豆奶，Ah Tea也不知从哪里冒出来叫我快点集合大家走去DK了。我其实开始懒惰了，就叫Ah Tea去带营员们咯。我帮忙叫营员快点吃完集合，之后文铃也出现帮忙安排每一组然后由Ah Tea带领走到DK。我当然是坐美惠的车去咯。

14th National Varsity Education Counselling Camp Part 1

2009-06-08T01:13:00.008+08:00

我平常比较喜欢用英文但是这次写blog还是用华文比较容易表达我自己。。。应该会写得很长因为是从头到尾的故事。。。所以如果有兴趣看就要有耐心的看吧！！希望大家见笑吧！！

第14届全国大专升学辅导生活营是从31/5 - 2/6/2009 在UNIMAS举行。我的工作是身为辅导员以及团康组的特助!!真是没有想到我会那么的投入团康因为我是一个害羞的人(哈哈！！应该没人相信吧！）

我就从头说起吧！！Edison被选为营长的过程是在去年年尾的研讨会而定的。为什么我这么说呢？因为在研讨会的第一天早上吃早点时，我们一群去年参加过梦宝屋生活营(去年的升学辅导生活营）的朋友就聚在一桌。当时有Edison,痒痒，美慧，安琪，二姐，志宏，我本人还有几位我忘了是谁（不好意思哦），我们都很开心地在聊天而不知不觉就聊到了关于去年生活营的东西。我们都很怀念去年的生活营玩得多开心而就说到今年的由谁去负责办，说到这里时大家都望着Edison拼命的捧他做营长因为他是去年生活营的最佳营委。我们都答应如果Edison做营长，我们一定帮他把生活营搞得有声有色。我们还帮忙安排二姐为副营长，安琪为财政而美慧为秘书。还特地去找发财他们宣传这个消息虽然Edison当时还没答应。研讨会之后，发财他们就说服了Edison。之后的故事就像在闭幕典礼的video clip一样咯，就是Edison去找痒痒和文铃做副营长。

起初文铃告诉我说我的大学（北大 UUM)将负责团康时，我整个人傻眼了。因为当时，我的学长(浩培）叫我负责因为他说他可能来不及回来参加生活营因为他有实习（Practicuum)。但是很幸运的是文铃吩咐浩培来教手语而浩培因为跟文铃是很好的朋友就不敢拒绝让我松了一口气。虽然我帮他一些忙但是当团康组有练习时，我来不及去所以我的手语都是之后在古晋和Ranchan训练营学会的。我刚开始以为团康组只有嘉敏，Allan, Amy, 风儿和爱慧而之后才知道有了佩霞以及Nicoh。佩霞还是组长而Nicoh是负责早操的。很高兴认识到这两个漂亮又疯疯癫癫的朋友！！她们真的让我对团康不再有恐惧而比较放得开，她们很喜欢搞笑让我也被她们影响到有点疯疯了但是很开心！！

说着说着就到了训练营，我们的训练营是在Ranchan, Serian从23/5 - 24/5/2009。去训练营的有大概四十几位营委，Edison以及两位副营长帮我们争取到算是不错的福利啦！虽然男生用礼堂边的小厕所冲凉然后和一部分的女生都睡礼堂而大部分女生们都睡很舒服房间（只是小小的抱怨）。在这两天一夜里，营委们都忙着完成手头上的工作。在这里，我又见回了一些在研讨会时认识的朋友也认识了很多新朋友。我也是在那里更深的了解我的Partner，田秋虹小姐。她是一位非常好心的人因为我是第一次当辅导员而她非常好心的帮助我。非常谢谢噢！！真是很开心但是有点遗憾因为也有一部分的朋友本来有参加的，结果因为各种各样的原因就不能来了。

有一位营委让我觉得很不可思议的是纪律组的竟然是一位娇小可爱的女生叫敬媖。我当时心想这次生活营完蛋了，一定是乱来一通。。。但是她让我对他完全的改观了。刚开始，我还以为她早上一定睡不醒而且做事一会很撒娇可是她既然可以早醒也不多怨言而且很尽责的完成她的工作。虽然营员大部分都不把她当一回事，哈哈！还有营员说她生气的样子很像在扮可爱！！

节目组比较可怜，汤圆她们都为了让营员们安全又公平的完成游戏就准备了大部分的游戏让我们营委做白老鼠试游戏。当中有三个游戏最难忘的而最后有一个被撤除了，难忘的游戏就是千里传音，多手多脚和Dice钻石（华文的Dice不会拼音）。
先说说好笑的，我们玩的Dice钻石是用一个战场（有号码的纸盒）而且Dice有用到头。好笑的是当一个人把屁股放在另外一个人正在放头的号码里，我忘了是谁但是让我笑得要命！！之后经过讨论也被改善了。头换成膝盖比较安全和合理~~
第二个难忘的是不可能完成的多手多脚的游戏。加分题：十二个人做出20只手8只脚，我们弄来弄去都不知怎么办了。。。有人背人，人叠人还有人坐人。但是还是办不到所以之后那题被改了。
最可怕和难忘的就是千里传音，有几位营委玩的太卖命了结果第二天就失声了。游戏是一个人需要站在风扇面前然后其他队友在比较远的地方。玩法是站在风扇面前的人看了Game Master给的成语之后需要面着已经开最快速度的风扇把成语喊给其他队友听。因为是两组对比的情况下，对方会发出噪音来干扰就会越喊越大声。我就是其中一个玩过头的人，结果就没声音了。最夸张的是Alvin的声音，又尖又高的尖叫声把每个人吓了。。。最后由于我们为了营员的喉咙就把游戏换掉了。。。要不然，失声的营员可多咯。。。药剂一定忙死，药也不够分。。。哈哈！！

我们团康组的当然也有点忙咯，一直练手语和教其他营委手语。还要想早操的舞步以及一些小游戏。。。我们跳舞，跳到脚都软了。。。连坐跟站的力都没有了但是跳和玩得很开心！！阿逖也变了团康组的一部分。在这里要提到两个团康组的风云人物就是佩霞和Nicoh，没有她们就没有生活营时团康组的优秀表现！！

当中，我们当然有去玩水咯！！我第一天中午就被一群旧同学约去跟他们回合因为他们刚好也去Ranchan玩水。那时就把整身弄湿了，虽然很爽但是玩了一会就回去礼堂跟其他营委集合。当时阿Ong才到，吓得我快快跑到礼堂后躲在团康组那里。回想觉得满好笑的！！之后我们一部分营委有去玩水，玩得很爽因为天气实在太热了。。。水也实在太冷太爽了。。。从瀑布走回时，佩霞还不小心跌倒吓倒我们。还好只是轻微的擦伤。

当然营委们不止是去玩，大家都在忙着各自的工作。Edison，痒痒和文铃都忙得不可开交。登记的忙着做最后的重整名单和帮大家做名卡。真是很忙得两天！！回之前，大家就开了一个大组会议来讨论生活营的行程表（Rundown，痒痒费了很多的精神做的）。讨论完之后，两天一夜的训练营就这样过去了。。。回家之前还想起了，那天早上吃的RM3超大包的kolomee。。。吃得都快要吐了。。。

Resurrection!

2009-06-07T14:04:00.003+08:00

Suddenly have the urge to resurrect my blog because I don't know... Well most importantly, see-ing other people's blog suddenly jolted me with a sense of sharing my own experience as well...
So I'll probably start blogging whenever I can so that I can share with everyone what I personally experience...

Something boring again

2008-03-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

【和尚与屠夫】
从前有一个和尚跟一个屠夫是好朋友。和尚天天早上要起来念经，而屠夫天天要起来杀猪。为了不耽误他们早上的工作，是他们约定早上互相叫对方起床。
多年以后，和尚与屠夫相继去世了。屠夫去上天堂了，而和尚却下地狱了。
Why?
因为屠夫天天作善事，叫和尚起来念经，相反地，和尚天天叫屠夫起来杀生……

小哲理：
你做的东西是不是都是你认为对的，却不一定是对的。

【一道终身受用的测试题】
你开着一辆车。
在一个暴风雨的晚上。
你经过一个车站。
有三个人正在焦急的等公共汽车。 
一个是快要临死的老人，他需要马上去医院。
一个是医生，他曾救过你的命，你做梦都想报答他。
还有一个女人/男人，她/他是你做梦都想嫁/娶的人，也许错过就没有了。
但你的车只能在坐下一个人，你会如何选择？
我不知道这是不是一个对你性格的测试, 因为每一个回答都有他自己的原因。
老人快要死了，你首先应该先救他。
你也想让那个医生上车，因为他救过你，这是个好机会报答他。
还有就是你的梦中情人。错过了这个机会。你可能永远不能遇到一个让
你这么心动的人了。

在200个应征者中，只有一个人被雇佣了，他并没有解释他的理由，他只是说了以下的话：

“给医生车钥匙，让他带着老人去医院，而我则留下来陪我的梦中情人一起等公车!”
每个人我认识的人都认为以上的回答是最好的，但没有一个人（包括我在内）一开始都没想到。

小哲理：
是否是因为我们从未想过要放弃我们手中已经拥有的优势（车钥匙）? 有时，如果我们能放弃一些我们的固执，狭隘，和一些优势的话，我们可能会得到更多。

【皮鞋的来历】

很久很久以前，人类都还赤着双脚走路。

有一位国王到某个偏远的乡间旅行，因为路面崎岖不平，有很多碎石头，刺得他的脚又痛又麻。回到王宫后，他下了一道命令，要将国内的所有道路都铺上一层牛皮。他认为这样做，不只是为自己，还可造福他的人民，让大家走路时不再受刺痛之苦。

但即使杀尽国内所有的牛，也筹措不到足够的皮革，而所花费的金钱、动用的人力，更不知凡几。虽然根本做不到，甚至还相当愚蠢，但因为是国王的命令，大家也只能摇头叹息。

一位聪明的仆人大胆向国王提出建言：「国王啊！为什么您要劳师动众，牺牲那么多头牛，花费那么多金钱呢？您何不只用两小片牛皮包住您的脚呢？」国王听了很惊讶，但也当下领悟，于是立刻收回成命，改采这个建议。据说，这就是「皮鞋」的由来。

小哲理：
想改变世界，很难；要改变自己，则较为容易。
与其改变全世界，不如先改变自己--「将自己的双脚包起来」。
改变自己的某些观念和作法，以抵御外来的侵袭。
当自己改变后，眼中的世界自然也就跟着改变了。
如果你希望看到世界改变，那么第一个必须改变的就是自己。

「心若改变，态度就会改变；态度改变，习惯就改变；习惯改变，人生就会改变。」

Juz bored

2008-03-25T01:46:00.000+08:00

坏事做多了，小心会犯 “业障” ；
傻事做多了，小心会犯 “智障” 。

做人难， “出生率” 逐年下降；
做事难， “失常率” 经年不降。

公司赚钱，老板吃肉，员工喝汤；
公司倒闭，老板吃官司，员工喝西北风。

小人有 “不义之财” ；
穷人有 “不易之财” 。

景气好时，多数人选择 “投资” ；
景气差时，多数人选择 “投胎” 。

男人在一起，比的是 “块头” ；
女人在一起，比的是 “行头” 。

“没有” 情人的，很讨厌情人节；
“很多” 情人的，更讨厌情人节。

在爱情中，有人 “视死如归” ；
在婚姻中，有人 “视归如死” 。

爱情的开始，是希望给 “对方” 一个未来；
爱情的结束，是希望给 “自己” 一个未来。

别人的另一半，像 “艺术品” ；
自己的另一半，像 “日用品”。

恋爱是的花费，证明爱情 “真实” ；
结婚后的开支，证明婚姻 “无价” 。

谈恋爱，最好是 “有心人” ；
谈结婚，最好是 “有钱人” 。

富人结婚， “最爱” 门当户对；
穷人结婚， “最怕” 门当户对。

爱情像 “口香糖” ，很容易；
婚姻像 “麦芽糖” ，很困难。

还是情人时，往往 “客气” 多；
结为夫妻后，往往 “火气” 多。

热恋时，再夸张的谎言都能听成是 “情话” ；
结婚后，再认真的情话只会当成是 “废话” 。

婚前， “男人” 把时间花在 “女人” 身上；
婚后， “女人” 把时间花在 “男人” 身上。

女人婚后，希望 “安定” 的生活；
男人婚后，希望 “安静” 的生活。

婚后的男人，只愿 “耳根清静” ；
婚后的女人，只愿 “不见为净” 。

婚前的男女， “形影” 常相左右；
婚后的男女， “意见” 常相左右。

婚前，男人经常找女人 “讨论” ；
婚后，男人只告诉女人 “结论”。

完全相反的个性，结婚时叫 “互补” ；
完全相反的个性，离婚时叫 “个性不合” 。

如果婚姻是爱情的坟墓，那模范夫妻充其量，不过是 “示范公墓” 罢了；
如果婚姻是爱情的坟墓，一年一次的结婚周年庆祝，便是在 “扫墓” 了。

以前， “王子与公主” 的故事是童话；
现在， “老夫与老妻” 的故事是神话。

Just bored so typed this from an email i received.... wakakaka?

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2008-03-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

welcome to my blog...
i have alot of things to blog but there is nothing more important than saying wakakaka??